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Friday, March 28, 2008
i feel utterly disgusted with myse;f. thats all i can say about myself.
when i look into the mirror, i wish i saw something else.
its not as easy as it seems to put everything down and go on saying "i'm okay" or "nothing happened" or "i'm just tired".
everyone knows i'm not okay. i don't need all of you to say it to me, or to remind me that i need help.
i need some peace and quiet in the morning. i'd rather be left alone. honestly.
everything's not so simple anymore. its scary. its so scary that i just cry everyday. i can't control my emotions.
i'm so done with everything. and now that many people know of this blog, i'm going to move soon.
i really don't like people bugging me in the morning. you could sit with me and not talk. i'm okay with that. if not, take your chatty friends away. i don't want to hear any of your converstaions. i've had enough of it.
JUST
LEAVE
ME
ALONE
I
WILL
FIND
HELP
ON
MY
OWN
if i can't do it myself, i'll cry. i'll cry until my eyes are swollen, i'll cry till my voice goes hoarse. i'll cry till my eyes burn and i'll cry till i've got no more tears.
BUT
I
DON'T
NEED
ANYONE
TO
PITY
ME
OR
BOTHER
ME
LEAVE
ME
ALONE
IN
THE
MORNINGS
I
WILL
TALK
WHEN
I
WANT
TO
