holidays
Friday, June 13, 2008
okay it's been forever since i've updated this place, and now only ONE person (other than me) knows that this place exists.
the past few week has been.. so-so. not that great, but still live-able. had a couple of run-ins with undesirable situations, but then again, who doesn't? but going for lunch with tiara today made me happier.
well many things have really happened over the past few weeks. hormones lingering waaaaaay longer than they should, mood swings wilder than they should be, and i realised that i really have a problem.
as much as i need some people back, i realised that they're gone forever.
and this would probably be the first time i'll say this, but i'm afraid. i'm really afraid, not knowing what to do, and how i'll turn out to be. the thoughts in my head, the words that i say, and things that i do... sometimes it scares me.
but sometimes, i'm just relieved. for example, i don't have ugly names. i'm pretty much satisfied with my names.
i'll be seeing dr. soh and dr. chu on tuesday and wednesday respectively. i can't help but to sense some worry.
sigh.
oh, happy friday the 13th.
