psychology follow up
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
went for the follow up with the doctors at kkh.
well, i realised that many things happened for reasons that i may not even know of, and that there's nothing i can do about them.
i think one of the best examples has presented itself. i guess many know what i'm talking about.
you can't hurry love,neither can you stop it.but is it really love?school is VERY tiring. but then everyone's feeling it too. so if they can do it, i can do it too.
and by the way, our b div netball team got the second placing in the nationals! and c div came in first! wellllll done!
and lisa is being really, really dumb (as usual).
ho ho.
i just crab. and i just realised that i don't really fancy crabs. my lucky future husband, no need to spend money on sri lankan crabs! i heard they feed on human meat.
OH GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
SEE WHO STILL WANTS TO EAT SRI LANKAN CRAB! EAT LAH, EAAAAAAAAT, ALL YOU CANNIBALS!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!
tired
Sunday, April 13, 2008
i am not prepared for school.
and the chantings from the void deck is giving me a headache and i can feel my stupid fever coming back. sometimes i feel like converting the whole world to become catholics so that there won't be all these weird chantings that cause my headaches.
guess what. i don't have dengue fever or any infection, but i've had fevers for 5 days already. this viral fever is killing me.
i haven't spoken to probably 99% of the people i know for 5 days already. i can forsee the problem i'm going to face when i go back.
i've spent a lot of time thinking over the last few days. and nothing came out of it. i think, and then i cry. and the crying doesn't stop.
whatever is happening to me doesn't look too good.
i also feel quite cheated. i guess nobody will actually know how i'm feeling. afterall, nobody even knows of this blog.
as secret as it can get, i'm not sure if i want to keep a blog anymore.
i'm quite sick and tired of everything already. i don't really care anymore.
Social studies kills.
sick, again
okay screw it.
i'm the only person who knows of this new blog anyway. i'm getting so pissed with everybody and i don't know why.
i'm pushing everyone away from me. all i ever do is just keep to myself.
i've been MIA for about 5 days now. i guess i'm not surprised how people have decided not to msg me anymore. i guess its a good thing in a way, so that i won't hurt them by ignoring them.
tomorrow is really going to be a bad day. i haven't been in school since wednesday. i don't know how to catch up, neither do i know how to talk to my friends anymore.
it was an overdose of sadness and tears, anger and pain, disgust and remorse. i don't know what came over me, but all i know is that when it comes, nobody escapes it.
i'm trying so hard not to let my parents know, but it doesn't seem to be working one bit. each time i don't flare up, it gets worse.
its a devious monster in me.
sick and dead
Friday, April 11, 2008
oh shit.
guess what, i'm not dead yet.
sorry to those who wished i were dead and would disappear.
i think i have an overdose of medication.
and by the way, nobody has to fake concern for me just to make yourself feel better. i don't really care. no point asking if you don't mean it.
don't pretend. it isn't worth it. not the least.
i'll make sure i'll disappear.
once again, GOODBYE.
sick
Thursday, April 10, 2008
the people that should be worried, aren't worried.
the people that shouldn't be worried, are worried.
what the hell.
okay guess what, just leave me alone and don't bother me. since nobody really cares, just don't bother.
and you know what, don't bother visiting me either. i don't think i want to see anyone.
no wait, don't even call me, because i don't want to talk to anyone.
GOODBYE.
just thinking
Saturday, April 5, 2008
it has been about a week now. the pressure is setting in already. the pressure of school, exams, friends and on myself.
meeting up with the psychologist wasn't a very bad thing. i thought that she was really great. i really don't have an idea what exactly is going on.
anyway, i really want to thank those lovely people who've been there for me. really, it was amazing how i could smile everyday despite what i felt. i really did feel awful, but thank you all so so much. i can't wait till the mid-years are over and we can spend some quality time together.
and guess who i had tuition with last night? CHARMIAN! hmmm, i was THIS close to not going for class. and i really didn't expect her to be there! i guess i'll probably go down for the game on thursday because its IJ against RGS, AGAIN. and since she asked me to go... i'll think about it :)
i went shopping a little bit. hee.
alright, time to go! but before i go, i've been listening to this song after someone told me to listen to it.
When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah
You've got a friend
If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking upon your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yes I will
You've got a friend
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again (oh baby don't you know)
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
Lord, I'll be there yes I will
You've got a friend
Oh, you've got a friend
Aint it good to know you've got a friend
Aint it good to know you've got a friend
You've got a friend
