I HAVE SURVIVED!
Monday, December 31, 2007
this was from my dearest victoria, who comforted me when i feel like crap..
For love comes much as a gift,
Not as a pain to be put up with.
To You.
I know that you feel like your heart's been ripped out,
torn,
shattered.
Know that I'm always here to listen to you.
Though I may not always know the right words to say,
Or how to advice you,
Or how to cheer you up,
I'll always be here for you! =)
Crying tsunamis and oceans do not exactly help,
but it does help to cry.
It makes you feel loads better.
Do not think yourself of having wasted 2 months
or any part of time
With him.
But think of it as
getting to know him better.
Although I know how much you just want to HATE him,
you can't, because,
Love makes it that way.
Do not hate that you fell in love with him,
And compare yourself with the OTHER girl.
Because,
No one can ever compare to you!
You are beautiful,
you are absolutely the life of a crowd where ever you go,
You've got the sweetest smiles,
You're absolutely wonderful,
AND...
ITS HIS LOSS!!!!
Too bad for him. bleah.
Lots of Love,
Vicky<3
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THANK YOU VICTORIA!!!!!
okay anyway, I AM OKAY. I CAN SHOW THE WORLD THAT I WON'T LET ANYTHING GET ME DOWN :D
thank you everyone who have helped in one way or another. those who listened to me cry, i am really really sorry y'know! i don't know why i couldn't stop. they just keep coming out! i cried, and cried, and cried until no more sound came out! REALLY SORRY!!!!!
after these SIXTEEN DAYS of crying with 4 tsunami of tears within 2 days, i have become a much stronger person. i will use this experience to tell others that i know what they've been through.
i know how it is to have had your heart broken and cried at every love song you heard. i'll know how it feels like when you feel like you've lost everything but your friends are every willing to embrace all your pain and cry with you. i'll know how it feels to see the one you love everyday, knowing he only loves you as a friend. and i know what it means when people say that loving someone isn't about possesing them, but wanting and knowing that they're happy.
and for now, i am no longer seeing him as someone i used to. but instead, i see him as one of my good friends, and i'll love him for who he is as a friend. and as what friends do for each other, i'll do it for him. and as to love someone, i'll only want him to be happy, and i'll be there for him when he needs me, because i know he's comfortable with me.
now, i have a million and one things to accomplish after spending SO MUCH TIME crying!
so here's something that i'll live by:
If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be
and here's one more that says alot:
Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You
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YAY ME!
so since i've welcomed someone back into my life as a friend after everything, i'll out some touching quotes:
People won't remember what you did.
People won't remember what you said.
But, people will remember how you made them feel.
So often we don't say 'I love you'
because we fear losing someone,
but more often we lose them
because we fear saying 'I love you'
Can miles truly separate you from friends?
If you want to be with someone you love,
aren't you already there?
Side by side or miles apart,
friends like us stay close to the heart.
Closeness isn't always measured in distance;
friends can live many miles away,
but the bond of love formed long ago
always keeps them close at heart.
Our Friendship: A two way road to a perfect love.
A friend is someone who will walk
the long way when you don't want to hop the fence.
Money and power only last the hour,
but friendship and love withstand the sky above.
You have done it
Without a touch,
without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means
After all.
Friends are like wedgies.
They're intimately close.
They know you're inner self.
And it feels great when you pick out a good one!
My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me.
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ah, WONDERFUL! :D
oh! and one more thing that amelia taught me:
I Will Survive
At first I was afraid,
I was petrified,
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side,
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew stong
And I learned how to get along
And now you're back
From outer space,
I just walked in to find you here
With that sad look upon you're face,
I should have changed that stupid lock,
I should have made leave your key,
If I'd known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.
Go on now go,
Walk out the door,
Just turn around now,
Cause you're not welcome anymore,
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbyes
Do you think I'd crumble?
Do you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no not I
I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And I will survive
I will survive
Hey Hey!
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high.
And you'll see me
Somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
Still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me
Go on now go
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye?
Did you I crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no not I
I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Hey hey!
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