CNY celebrations
Friday, February 8, 2008
i don't know why, but cny to me has become the most boring thing ever. i can bet that in time to come, i won't carry on the tradition.
if you think about it, how many of us actually talk to our second cousins? the only reason we go visiting is because our
parents and grandparents go visiting. in their,
their relatives because to us, the other are almost non-existent. there's no form of communication except a smile faked to perfect sweetness and a handshake with "happy new year". thats all.
i'll probably exist in a western country in the near future where i'll be the only one celebrating cny with my family.
the reunion dinners on my mother's side is always unhappy. at least for me. i get so annoyed and stressed out that i give up eating. i hate the way my mother behaves at the table and it really irks me. i try and understand but i simply can't. she is always making
me do the things she can do but doesn't want to. or its either that she's shouting
through my ears to talk to someone seated
an arms length away from her. forgive me if i'm a little deaf after the break.
we had our reunion dinner on tuesday and today (friday).
tuesday's dinner was the stupidest ever. i hardly ate and we
started eating at 10pm. yes. when half the world is asleep, i just started my dinner. my mother bugged me to go down and help, and i was almost redundant there. in which i could have been resting because of my stupid period that was draining my concentration and energy. but
NO, SHE MADE ME GO DOWN AT A FREAKING 9PM. okay fine, so i ate the amount that my mouth had energy to chew. i left at 1045
by myself, came home, took a shower and slept. case closed. okay maybe not. i was exceptionally quiet and so angry during the dinner with the whole world. reunion dinner wasn't about everyone, it was just about my grandmother and her children, not grandchildren. and what made things worse? my cousin's ugly girlfriend was so effing gross with her public display of affection that it made it weird to watch. if i have to liken her to something NOT homosapien, she'd be an earthworm. why? no backbone, very
nua and gross (disgusting).
today. i hated my mother. i rolled my eyes about 17 times at the table and i ate just enough to fill
half my stomach. once again, i was almost non-existent. i probably sound whiny and all, but i'm really angry this whole cny. i think it's just PMS. at least my aunty was human enough to sense that there was something wrong. DON'T FORCE TO SWITCH SEATS IF I DON'T WANT TO. ERGH.
i tried okay, i tried to smile. i probably have the blackest face amongst the red during this festive season. sometimes i wish i had someone for me. like, THERE. i know i have... but...
i really don't like my cousin's girlfriend and she's really an ah lian. SHE. SPEAKS. CHINESE. and her hair is rebonded and she smile like velda. yucks. earthworm.
on the lighter side, i absolutely love reunion dinners with my dad's side. i love the people there. i don't resent anyone and i actually like my cousins' girlfriends. and to add on, i actually
talk to my cousins because we're not so distant and nobody is so busy with themselves are acting all lovey-dovey with someone they just met 6 months ago (
earthworm and my cousin).
the cheoks are the best okay i tell you.
anyway, i'll post the pictures of my nephews (ray and randell) in a happier post! :D
