farewell
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i have a feeling that the people who know of this blog will be coming to read this blog.
i really don't know what is going on with me. all i do is just cry and cry and cry. it is as if my heart died already.
sorry if i scared/worried all of you, because i scare myself too. i really don't want to continue like this anymore.
i've been fighting back my last batch of tears for about a day now. i really don't wish to burden anybody with my problems and extreme moods. sorry for everything.
and before i go on, i really want to say sorry to some people.
1.
steph and rachel. i guess i don't have to spell it all out, but i'm so sorry if i've irritated you both over the last few weeks.
2.
camelia and renee. sorry to come to school all gloomy and make you both so worried. sorry if i took it out on you both.
3.
amelia, michelle and sam. sorry if i haven't been talking lately, or if i've been too flighty. really, really sorry.
4.
pat. sorry for loading you with so much of my problems and making you comfort me every other day.
5.
people i talk about in school. i'm very sorry for gossiping, i'll try my very very best to quit this bad habit.
tomorrow's the day. i am scared and hesitant. as much as i don't wish to do anything, i know i need help. this is going on for far too long.
i don't want to know what you all are saying about me.i don't want to know that you're saying 'i love you' to me without meaning it.i don't want to be left alone.i don't want to cry alone.i don't want to go through anything i shouldn't be going through.i don't want to feel unloved.i want to be thin.
